Lots of Change

As you can see, its been a long while.  I have not decided if I should change my blog address or not. But, the purpose of today is to just, post.  Since my last blog post we have added 2 children to our family. Arabella, April of 2010 and Joseph, November of 2013. Patrick, my husband, has gone through 3 jobs. We've had a string of ups and downs. Mostly downs for me. But, my children and my husband are healthy and strong in Jesus. A constant imperfect work in progress.  So, why so many downs for me?  My body does not want to keep up with normal life demands. Stress. Good stress, bad stress, me being a thinker and thinking to much. Me not remembering how to write.  That's going on right now.
I've been on this journey for a few years now and I'm hoping to be at the tail end of it.  I'm ready to be a whole woman, a whole child of God. To have the tiny pieces put back together by God, so I can really live to glorify Him.  I am very shattered. Looking for hope of being put back together.  Being broken is hard.
It hurts. As Zechariah 13:9 And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will come upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, "They are my people'; and they will say, "The Lord is my God.'"  It feels like I'm being refined and tested.  I must remember and trust James 1:2-4 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
I am completely in God's hands. Hoping for mending. My life's verse Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand: do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known to God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
There you have it. Constantly changing in deed.