Broken

Ephesians 2:13-22But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. For He himself is our peace, who has made us both one and has broken down in his flesh the dividing wall of hostility by abolishing the law of commandments expressed in ordinances, that  he might create in himself one new man in place of the two, so making peace, and might reconcile us both to God in one body through the cross, thereby killing the hostility. And he came and preached peace to you who were far off and peace to those who were near. For through him we both have access in one Spirit to the Father. So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole structure, being joined together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord. In him you also are being built together into a dwelling place for God by the Spirit.

Ephesians 2:8-10 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

Reading, pondering, meditating, and soaking in these verses.  It's not bad to be broken and shattered. Because the good news is in Jesus Christ, that when we are His, we are being sanctified. It is a continuous journey until death of our earthly bodies.

So, thus the journey of constantly changing. Continuously being molded and transformed for the glory of Christ.  I am changing. I'm becoming more soft with emotions and more emboldened with the truths of God's word. (The Holy Bible) It sounds counter intuitive. But God is not just wisdom. God is also controlled emotions. Learning this in Psalms currently.  God is just, love, wise, compassionate, vengeance to the wicked, and merciful to those who fear Him. It's written all over the Psalms.

I'm broken, to be molded.

James 1:6-7 In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith--more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire--may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

I'm broken, to give God all the glory.

Now to keep my hands open and lifted up to Him.

Lots of Change

As you can see, its been a long while.  I have not decided if I should change my blog address or not. But, the purpose of today is to just, post.  Since my last blog post we have added 2 children to our family. Arabella, April of 2010 and Joseph, November of 2013. Patrick, my husband, has gone through 3 jobs. We've had a string of ups and downs. Mostly downs for me. But, my children and my husband are healthy and strong in Jesus. A constant imperfect work in progress.  So, why so many downs for me?  My body does not want to keep up with normal life demands. Stress. Good stress, bad stress, me being a thinker and thinking to much. Me not remembering how to write.  That's going on right now.
I've been on this journey for a few years now and I'm hoping to be at the tail end of it.  I'm ready to be a whole woman, a whole child of God. To have the tiny pieces put back together by God, so I can really live to glorify Him.  I am very shattered. Looking for hope of being put back together.  Being broken is hard.
It hurts. As Zechariah 13:9 And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will come upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, "They are my people'; and they will say, "The Lord is my God.'"  It feels like I'm being refined and tested.  I must remember and trust James 1:2-4 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
I am completely in God's hands. Hoping for mending. My life's verse Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand: do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known to God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
There you have it. Constantly changing in deed.